okay.
Had counselling session yesterday.
Really helped with the dreams. Im not afraid to go to sleep anymore.
Its amazing how much you drag into your sleep process. Suddenly Im really tired tho.

As for the man thing - do you really ever forgive? you definitely dont forget. I wish I could ask all the questions and get all the answers. Is is worth throwing away the man? Especially knowing he is a good man. He just doesnt care about hurting me. He loves me, but how does he love me? hell if I know.

Decorated the living room. Feels good. Man thinks its something to do with me selling the house.
I have no intention of selling the house, it just takes my mind off things and makes everybody feel better about something.